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[May. 6th, 2009|11:54 am] |
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Wow. So. A lot has been going on lately, not even gonna lie. Softball is done for school, and starting up very soon for summer. I'm excited. I'm kind of glad that it's over for school, but I do wish that I was going to States or something with my team. I know we could've made it, but eh, it's all good. I'm just glad the drama's over. Aside from that, things are going alright. Me and Amanda aren't together or anything, but people seem to think we are. I don't know. I don't think we will be together any time soon, really, because she doesn't want a relationship right now because she's still stuck on Nicole, which we both can't stand because, well, Nik is a bitch and treats her like shit. I don't know what's going on with that, but I know that I'm getting too close, and it bugs me. But whenever I try to pull myself back a bit, I can't. Like. I don't know if it's because I'm already too attatched, or if I just really don't want to. Hell, it could be both. I don't know. Point is, she's pretty much already got me wrapped around her finger. I love it, but I hate it all at the same time. It scares me really. And I still care about Lyndsay. I mean, she is still my friend, and her and I were really close. And I know the fact that I'm stuck on Amanda bothers her, even though she does have a boyfriend. Eh. Not much I can do about it. It was kinda her choice to move on anyway. But yeah, things with me and Amanda are going alright considering the circumstances. I haven't seen her much lately because there's a lot going on, but we've been talking and stuff, so it's alright. She seems to like risking getting in trouble at night to talk to me. She's supposed to be off the phone by 10, and she'll call me at like 10:30/11 and talk to me. She's such a nerd. Haha.
Aside from all that stuff, I'm finally getting out of my Christian school next year! Yep! For senior year, I'm going back to my real school. Hollywood Hills. Heck yes. It's not the greatest school around or anything, but all my friends are there, and I miss it there, even it is dumb. On the up side, it's like... Gay central. Haha. Soooo I can go there and not get shit for being gay! =D Amazing and a half. I'm getting my hair cut right after I take senior pictures, which will be soon, because I want my hair shorter for summer ball. I can't wait. No more uniform, all my friends. I'm excited. I don't think I've ever been so excited about school in my life. Haha.
I've been hanging out with some of my old friends more lately, too. And I've come in contact with some friends from wayyy back. Like, back in 8-under softball, I played and was really close with this girl Catherine (Cat), but then like, I don't really know what happened, but she like.. Fell off the face of the earth or something. And then recently when I was at a district game for softball, I was getting my stuff put away and my mom was waiting for me but she was talking to some people and I was like "Who the hell..?" and I get over there and this girl comes up and she goes "Do you remember me..?" and I looked at her with like this look of disbeliefe and I was like "CATHERINE!" and we hugged. Haha. Apparently she played for her school team, who we later beat for the district championship. Haha. But yeah so I hung out with her and we've been hanging out more and talking. And then last week Friday I went to watch one of the softball games, and I met up with another old team mate who stopped playing. It's crazy. I'm loving it though. I'm gaining friends, losing friends, and maintaining the ones that stick around.
My job is pissing me off. It's easy and I like it, but my managers are fucking stupid. Like, recently I was told that I wasn't performing well at work, yet I've hardly been there in the last 2 weeks because they keep cutting my hours, which sucks in itself. In all actuality, they're just looking for any little excuse they can to fire people because they over-hired. They have way too many people on the payroll. It's stupid. So I went and put in an application at a new Firehouse Subs place closer to my house. Hopefully I'll get that, that way if they decide to fire me, I can be like "That's fine, I have a new job already, anyway. Thanks for nothing, assholes!" Haha yep. Works for me.
Summer ball is coming up fast, and I can't wait. My coach is completely amazing. He always calls us up to see what we're doing, how we are, if we wanna go do somethin with him and shit. It's pretty sick. He's really chill. And my team is going to be like.. Amazing. We're stacked. And for once, I'm not the only gay one on the team! Amazing! And I won't be the only one with short hair! I really can't wait. We have our first tournament in Boca, then South Miami, then we're heading to South Carolina for a week, then not even a week later we're going to Kissemmee, then not long after that back up to Tampa, then we're back here in Davie for our last one. Coach doesn't practice that often, but when we do, they're long. But I don't really mind that, because I'd rather have one 3.5/4 hour practice once in a while rather than five 2 hour practices throughout the week.
So yeah, that's pretty much what's been going on since the last time I posted on here. Oh, that and the fact that me and Skittlez are perfectly fine again. Love that girl. We decided that when I get back to Hills, she's my school girlfriend. Haha. Ah. Things have been up and down, but I'm pretty content with my life right now, and I have no one but God to thank for that. I'll post again when I can.
-Christina |
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